I was at a worship conference in October 2009. While there, a woman about 60 years old was painting next to the worship team while they were playing and singing. This was my first time seeing "prophetic art" being done during a worship service.
The next day, this same woman was sharing during lecture time about prophetic art and her experiences with it. She reminded me of my own mother with her slight build, cheerful expressions, and self-deprecating remarks. At the end of her lecture, the facilitator invited anyone who was interested to come up and receive an impartation by laying on of hands from her for prophetic art.
I thought this would be a good idea and so got up to join the line of about 8 people that was forming. While standing in line, I got this strong sense from the Lord that I was not to receive an impartation for prophetic art from her. While thinking about this feeling, the Lord showed me a picture of myself kneeling before her with her hands on my head receiving a "Mother's blessing".
As soon as I saw this I started to cry in line and was just trying to hold myself together. Then when I got in front of her she started to talk with me and I could barely speak when I said, "I would like you to bless me with a mother's blessing."
As soon as I said this I knelt in front of her and grabbed her hands and put them on my head and started to sob. I sobbed and sobbed and fell forward into her stomach. I heard her sort of praying all over the place and not quite sure what to do. Then my wife ran up to her and grabbed her and said to her: "You need to say the words 'I bless you with a Mother's blessing'".
The woman just said, "I do it! I do it! I Bless you with a Mother's blessing." My wife had seen me nite after nite putting my hands on my children's heads and saying: "I bless you with a Father's blessing." And she knew what was valuable to me, and she knew what I needed deep in my emotions and soul.
When I finally got up, I went and sat down with all this relief in my heart and all this tenderness opened up inside of me. And I sat in the hugeness of that emotional space that had opened up inside of me. The Lord then showed me that for me to come into the fullness of my destiny and the largeness of what He has called me to, that I would have to receive the Father's and the Mother's blessing.
This was an answer to prayer that I have had to the Lord. I have cried and sought and knocked on heaven to release me into the fullness of who He has called me to be and he brought me front and center with the need for the Mother and Father's blessing. The Lord showed me that in order for His son Jesus to be released into public ministry he had to receive the blessing of His parent's. When Jesus came to be baptized by John, heaven opened and the Father spoke saying: "You are my beloved son in whom I am well pleased." (Mark 1:11).
Interesting, this was not enough. He then went to the wedding at Cana and was approached by His mother to with the statement, "they have no wine" (John 2:3). Then she says to his disciples sitting next to Him, "whatever He says to you, do it." I believe this is a very powerful release from his Mother into his destiny and public ministry. She directs His disciples to do whatever He says. This is a release from her and a mark of her confidence in Him.
Jesus was not an orphan, nor did He not know who His parents were, nor did he fail to receive their blessing or their mark of confidence in His ability to go forward into His destiny. Why should it be any different for me? Why should I think I can go forward into my fullness without my parent's blessing? My mother passed away 4 years ago and I still find myself needy for that blessing; and the Lord showed that he can "proxy" or make that blessing available through other "parent" type figures in my life.
The prophetic art teacher reminded me of my own Mother. And the Lord hit me hard with the need to pull on a blessing from her. I have also seen that it wouldn't make any sense for me to go seek a Father or Mother's blessing from one of my brothers in church who is a "peer". They are not a Father, they are a brother. I have to seek out those who are Father's, those who are Mother's...and then curry favor with them through honoring them to seek a release of their blessing into my life. I have become convinced there is no way around this. That to carry through to our fullness in Christ, we have to walk through receiving our parent's blessing, and that comes through us humbling before them and honoring them for who they are.
I think there is a war against us receiving the Mother and Father's blessing. I think that a church Father who blesses his sons and daughters out loud with confirmation releases confidence in them to move forward with all a true sense of who they are.
I wonder if Rebecca had the greatest understanding of this...who through manipulation deceived her own husband into giving this blessing to Jacob instead of Esau. She knew Jacob would be worthless in his future destiny if he did not take the primary blessing from Isaac before he left. I am taking a tenaciousness from Rebecca into this process. How much more should I pull on and honor my fathers and mothers to receive their release and blessing into my destiny on earth? I have to take a wildcat approach to getting this so that I become a real son....a son who's father says he is "well pleased" with me.
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